A NEW CBL!!!

Well this week at CBL has been so much fun for me especially. CBL is starting to gain its fun life back as it did before. Me and Ben have been the only 2 here since David was booted out by Zac. So its been kinda quite and relaxing. That all changed this week When new app arrived. The new apps name is Vayne and he looks like a mini Zac. Vayne however is different and full of life and energy. He cam this Thursday the day he turned 18. So we through him a party to make him feel special as he is special. Vayne is a great person and I really like him and enjoy seeing him be so different. We had cake and trick candles that was so funny to watch Vayne try and blow out. Then we all got ready to head to the clubs for his first night out to a club ever. Needless to say we got there and he forgot his id so they dropped me Ian and Noah off to go back to get it. I had a amazing time that night and apparently so did Vayne which is great I see more good times at the club in his future. So Friday finally here and another app to go pick up. Adam is the name of this app. Adam is the ex bf of ex CBL Matt that walked out calling CBL members perverts. Remember him?? Well appears some of the stories that Matt was telling everyone about his ex wasn't true. Adam is really sweet good looking guy and is really cool as well. So we get him settled in and then the fun starts for the night after Zac leaves. We start drinking and playing drinking games. Everyone is getting drunk quickly. Vayne starts talking to coke bottles and himself in the mirror. He even starts looking for Dahvie the Blood on the dance floor band member under beds. He then moves on to kissing all over Ben and Adam. Well Vayne gets more from Adam in Adams chat thanks to them both being really drunk. So that night was extremely fun and interesting to see what Vayne is like drunk. I got videos as well. Since that night I have come to really like Adam me and him click really well. He makes me smile, laugh, and blush a lot. I know you guys are probably wondering what happen to My Matt. He has decided he wants to just be friends. He told me he would rather stay friends and not ruin that cause he wouldn't ever want to lose me I am to good to lose to something that could happen if we got together. I was a little bummed, but I understand. I wouldn't want to lose him either so we agreed to be friends for now. I am really glad that Vayne is accepted and I hope Adam is too. That's all I can say about this week that is hopefully the start of a new and much more exciting CBL.

WOW...is all I can say.

So this week as been totally and completely crazy to say the least. Well basically to start off the week David has been kicked out by Zac. Yea Zac kicked him out for his attitude about doing things he is suppose to do. Now a lot of the members think its just because he didn't clean the kitchen and its not that. He was kicked out for talking to the BOSS like he did. I fully understand why Zac kicked him out and agree with him. Ben gets in trouble for not cleaning, but he doesn't give a attitude about it he gets up and does whatever it is he was suppose to do. So of course when David got kicked out we started hearing things from people that David was talking shit about CBL and Zac. Things like CBL is losing business and going to close down and that Zac steals money from the boys. David even tried talking a app out of coming which he didn't count on me talking to the guy and getting him to reconsider. Moving on from David and to Ben. Ben has decided that he won't renew when his contract is up in a few weeks. I think David had a little to do with his decision, but that's just my opinion. Ben also was broken up with other day so he is dealing with that. I will be sad to see Ben leave, but that gives us a chance to get more guys in here that are really outgoing. We have 2 apps coming already and they both seem to be really out going. One of the apps coming is turning 18 the day he comes so it will be a little party for him. The other app coming is the ex-Boyfriend of ex-cbl boy Matt that left cbl cause of his "boyfriend". Well I have talked to his boyfriend and his boyfriend said that he never said anything like that. He said Matt was the one saying that stuff and that Zac was kicking him out and had no place to go. So we will have to find out the info on that story. Now onto more exciting stuff. I finally got to give my gorgeous Mattie his gift. He loved it very much. So we got drunk at the club, and danced almost all night along with making out with each other. So things are looking good for me and him so I hope things go further. He said he really wants to come here and visit so thats a good sign that he doesn't mind me doing this. Well guys thats all I have this week see you next week. =)

A sick week.

Well this week has been horrible for me. I have been sick for almost all of it what a bummer for me. So the sickness started late Wednesday night and got worse from there. I had a fever of 103.5 one night I was so miserable and wanted to just sleep forever. This week has been kinda of a blur I dont remember most of it cause of being sick. So this Thursday we was suppose to go out but didn't get to cause of a stupid bomb threat in Zac's apartment complex so they had the whole place block. Zac couldn't leave at all. I had company that night though so I wouldn't be bored. well he came over in a hoodie and glasses to be unnoticed lol. Some of you guys knew who he w as first off and others didn't. Well the guy was Mattie. Mattie as in ex-cbl boy and ex cbl manager Mattie. He is going to be coming around a lot more to hang with me. Well on another note you guys all know who JT is. Well other night i am laying in my bed and JT climbs in my bed and starts feeling on me. I asked JT 3 times to get out he finally does and is all pissy that I didn't sleep with him. Next day he apologizes and I ask do you think I am a slut?? He says to me I wouldn't call you a slut I would call you lucky to have me. I told he i have standards. I believe he is like a another Cj thinks he could have everything he wants. He makes me sick. So I am hoping very soon in the next week or so my mother send s my money to get me a car so I can finally go do things. Well I dont have much more to say se you g uys next week.

WOW...What a week!!!

Well this week has been very busy for me. I have been going non stop since I have been back to CBL. If I am not doing something with Zac then I am doing stuff around the house. Anyways I know I mentioned this in chat and in my video dairies that well me and Jayy the guy from Blood on the Dance Floor aren't talking anymore which kinda sucks because I liked him. Oh well boys come and go like always. Come to think of it last few guys have been this way. I think I need to stop being so nice and sweet to these guys and play hard to get. So onto to other news. I hoping in a couple of weeks I will be able to get my car with money my mother is sending me. If i get the car then I will be able to so much more here and be able to maybe find a guy better. So me and Zac have started to work out in the mornings together. I am aiming to get my body in shape and toned before summer. Thats my goal right now better body for the summer. Well you guys have noticed a difference in me since I have been back. I have change and matured in just a short period of time. I am back to being fun and loving like I used to be. You guys have seen that I now get up early and start my day off doing things with Zaccie. I don't lay around the house or sleep past noon anymore. So another new piece of news is I got a TATTOO this week or rather last week. I got a tattoo on my lower back. The tattoo is of a star with a music note in the middle of it and it looks amazing. The place and design fits my personality as well as my body. If you guys are wondering why I chose it then its because I love music and dance as everyone knows. Stars are one of my favorite things cause I feel like ab star shining in my on way. If anyone is also wondering what is going on with me and Mattie thats not the ex manager either. Well I talk to him,but not sure where me and him stand. I am not sure in Mattie is interested or not. He could just be playing hard ti get cause it hard to get any vibes from him like that. Well I am not sure that there is much more to say about this week. I look forward to the next 6 months here. Love all you guys.

I'M BACK!!!!

So guess what people I'm back at CBL and I couldn't be happier. I have Been in Orlando since I left and been doing great. I got a job even though they wasn't working me much I still was working. I got to go out and party with my friends and roomies. I had my Birthday while I was gone on the day after Thanksgiving. It was really fun got drunk and danced and just was myself. Well I was kinda missing it here so I called Zac and asked him could I come back. He told me that he would ask the members and the boys and see what their thoughts were. So I didn't know they answer yet. I came down to visit the thursday before Christmas and was told 2 days later that if I could put the bed in my old room together I could be a CBL Boy again. It was so hard putting that thing together so many parts and no instructions on how. I met the app who was really weird and different but I had to give him one thing he could sing and play the guitar. So I have been here having fun and being more productive during the day. I get up earlier and do things. Well my bad luck with boys continued when they first night i came back to visit Josh2 came over. Well we talked, cuddled, and played around. I liked him. Well after that night he was sick for a week and I checked on him every day even invited him over so I could take care of him. Finally the day he gets better I invited him over and he tells me he has plans with his ex. What a bummer so Josh2 was out. I am still friends with Mattie just in case you guys don't know which one I am referring to it's the boy me and CJ fought over. Well when I cam e back me and him made out at the club one night and I figured I would go after him again. Well that is harder said than done cause either he isn't interested or playing really hard to get LOL. Well 2010 was coming to a end and we made plans to have a party here at the CBL house. The plans changed cause of our friends Blood on the Dance Floor couldn't make it out here but invited us up there. I was so looking forward to meeting Jayy lead vocalist of the band. Well all is alright and then the Zac car breaks what a Bummer right so we all spent the New Year home. On the bright side of that Jayy tweeted me his number and I was talking to him and got him to agree to letting me and Zac come get him. So my first impression of him was he is kinda mean , but I soon found out he actually liked me and thought I was beautiful and just didn't know how to act around me. That made me feel really good about myself. I ended up staying at Zac's that night with Jayy we Cuddled and watched movies even kissed. He was really sweet and romantic kissing my shoulders and lips and his hands never even went pass my waist. So I guess I am talking to Jayy now cause he actually shows interest in me. This weekend was the best and most tiring in a long time. THIS NEW YEAR IS GOING TO BE GREAT I CAN SEE IT!!!!!!