UGHHH!!!

Well this week was better than last I can say that for sure. Last week was terrible. All that drama with CJ and Colby then my dads situation. I hated last week with a passion. This week was better though I am over the whole CJ thing and me and him are friends. I still don't agree with his and Robbie's choices, but everyone makes mistakes I did. I made up with Colby as everyone knows when he came back Tuesday. I gave him his flowers and he loved them. He told me that he missed me and that made my day I smiled again. He was just trying to put me through it for hurting him the way I did. I cant blame him for doing it either. I missed him like crazy and was so good to hold him and kiss him again. Well Wednesday Zac came down and CJ came here late Tuesday night. Well drama came with CJ. He ended up in Robbie's bed and I had told Robbie not to put himself in that position. He did it anyway I was really disappointed in him. Well we started our usual routine on Wednesday with the meeting with Zac and Jinx on the Cam. We learned that we have a trip coming up and we don't know what it is til the day we go. I am super excited to see what Zac has planned for us. I am thinking its a trip to Wet and Wild that would be fun. I really have no idea though. After our meeting me Ben and Zac went to Wal-mart to go do a little shopping. I did my chat that night with Colby in it with me. After my Chat we decided to go out and go to Ybor. We went out only for a short period of time, but during that short period Colby got really drunk. We came back and ended up in the cold pool. I got out and ended up in the bath alone I was kinda upset that he didn't join me. He was having a heart to heart with Robbie apparently about CJ. After that He laid on the couch and I did my best to take care of his sweet self and put him to bed. He had to get up and go to school that morning so Thursday i was off chat so I did mostly nothing. we ended up going out Thursday night like always I had fun cause for once I had someone that could dance almost as good as I could. CJ can dance and is not afraid to get on stage with me. We had fun they all ended up going to Castle but I stayed at The social and dance with my other friends. It was so much fun even though I wished Colby was there. Friday Colby came back other and we spent the day with each other all day. It was nice to just be around him. I want to tell you guys how he makes me feel even though I have only known him a short time. His smile is so sweet and beautiful and he likes me for me. He likes to be around me and even though I hurt him he trust me me still. His jokes and remarks are so funny. I love that he likes to wrestle and get down and dirty. He is just as romantic as me and that's why I am so attracted to him. So as of Saturday night my day had gone really good. Me and Robbie had a blast in his chat and was covered in chocolate syrup dancing. We ended up going out to the club to celebrate his tips he got. While at the club I got a text from Colby saying he was never coming to CBL again because his friends were treating him bad just cause he came here. My heart kinda sunk. I have tried talking him into not caring what others think but I guess that's not going to happen I feel so hurt that I tried to make up with him and got him back in my arms just for him to be ripped away again. It really sucks and I really hate it. I cried in chat today because of it I just can't stand the thought of not getting to see his face and smile anymore. I hoping he may change his mind. I am JUST HOPING FOR IT!!!!!!! =(