OH MAMA NOT TO MUCH!!!!

This week has been really fun and entertaining. My week started off by going on a second date with a guy named Tonee it was really nice and I enjoyed it. I had Monday and Tuesday off spent Monday night with Tonee. We drank and laugh played board games watched movies it was really fun. We and Tonee cuddle that night, but we didn't do anything I hate to burst your bubble guys lol. He brought me home that after noon where I slept that entire day. Wednesday Zac, Jinx, and Jonathan all came up we had a busy day ahead of us. We had the meeting and we played games. Zac and Jonathan fixed the dryer so it would dry better which meant Jonathan was on the roof. It was so funny watching Jonathan on the roof haha. Later that night jinx invited one of her friends over named Colby. We all started drinking and laughing. It started getting entertaining when Ben was overly drunk. He was just being silly and stupid to say the least. He wanted Jonathan to suck his balls cause of something Jonathan had said previously. Jonathan to this chance to mess with Ben. He had Ben trim his bush and was going to have him soak his nuts in Bleach. Ben wanted Jonathan to suck s his balls so bad he went on about it all night. Well then Matt wanted to get in on the fun so he started leading Ben around on a leash made from his belt LMAO. They made ben try and booty dance which was a hot mess lol. I felt badfor Ben until he started being a little crazy by talking to people in a very bad tone. Well Ben ended up getting emotional and crying and then finally passing out after him and Jonathan started yelling at each other. Well me and Colby started cuddling on the couch then ended up in a candle light bubble bath with soft music. It was so nice and romantic I really enjoyed holding him. after the bath we dryed and went to my bed. We ended up making colby first video which was really funny. colby is a virgin he hasn't had sex with a guy just oral which its so amazing. Colby's personality is stunning he is always smiling which makes me smile and he is sweet and likes me for me.we ended up riding together to the club thursday night but leaving a half hour after we got there cause we really wanted to be alone with each other. we came back to CBL to watch a movie and cuddle on the couch. Ended up making Colby's second video lol. after that we went to sleep colby left for school and my day started we did photoshoots and other things the day before which I think all came out great. Friday ended with me and Colby again cuddling in my bed after having a BBQ at Zac's Tampa apartment. We all went home and got packed and rested for the early trip to Gay Pride In Ybor City. Morning came and everyone was dragging to get things done we left around 10 and the fun began. We got to the hotel checked in and started having our drinks before 8 Jonathan was already Drunk and it was funny has hell. We did the whole Pride expo that was really boring cause there wasn't much to it. Then we went backto the hotel for free time me, Jinx, and Matt went for a dip at the pool. Around 7:30 we all got ready to go eat at Hamburger Mary's which the food and show was amazing, but the service sucked. We headed to Gbar after to dance and party everyone didn't stay put though lol. We ended up going back to the hotel to get ready for the tour of the GAY SPA AND RESORT aka BATHHOUSE. It was really interesting and kinda fun. We got the tour and was told we can come back when we want to later that night. So later after having more drinks Me, Jinx, Robbie, Colby, and Jonathan all went to the bathhouse. we sat in the Hot tub for most the night making fun of everyone, but all in all it was kinda fun. After coming back to the hotel I passed out. we got up today earrly to head back and I naped after I got back thats was about the some of my day here. see you guys next week kiss kiss

Did someone say "SEX"?

What can I say about this week? Well there was still drama in house with boys, but not as much which I am certainly happy about. However there was a lot of shady actions that I don't approve of. So as you all know Robbie and Ben have been continuing there little sexual encounters which amazingly doesn't affect me anymore at all. I lose interest in people that lie a lot and then play the sweet card to look innocent. So speaking of things I don't approve of I didn't approve of some of the choices Robbie made while he has been talking to Mitch, but that's his business not mine. As for Ben I have lost total interest in him as a sexual sense and maybe even as a good now he is just a friend that I need to watch. Anyways this week started off kinda boring blah, but got better when Zac got here and we got our package from Briefs. We all got a pair of undies and a dance cd which I really enjoyed cause I love dancing as you all know. I got to show my ideas for the chat room which everyone really like them. after the meeting everyone was getting ready for chat and what not we decided to go to Wal-mart and do a little shopping again. Matt made us late for Robbie's chat so he had to do it off backpack cam. So after we got things finished Wednesday and got a little bit of rest we started Thursday We got a Claire and a Stripper Pole in the Chat room that I really enjoy as you have seen lol. Also Claire has reached a new level of bitching at us which I think is funny, but others don't. Claire now not only yells at you, but texts you if you don't do you Daily Happenings LMAO. Anyways Thursday was a little busy cause of us not getting to do our podcast until then before some of us had to do our Chats. I asked Robbie the questions this week which was very fun and interesting. We talked about the drama of the past week and his new Bf from what I hear. We also talked about the advice I gave him that seem to help him a little from help from Mitch. But after all the chats were done everyone besides me was getting ready to go out so I had to get on the ball. we all got into very different styles of clothing but was all going to the club for one purpose or another. Zac goes to have fun with the boys. Robbie wants to spend his last night as a single boy playing with whatever he can find thats cute. Ben goes on a hunt for him some meat at first he was only dancing with girls not just any girls but lesbos lol. Matt goes to see the guy he has been chatting with for a bit which I think is really cool of him. I go to see a guy that I talked to on the net which when I met him he wasn't very social so I moved on. I got to meet my friend from Orlando I love him he is so funny and crazy to be around. I started dancing on the stage where a few others were. Well ended up seeing a guy that I talked to on the net a little bit ago. So we started dancing and then kissing which he kissed amazingly well it was time for him to go so I walked him to his car kissed goodbye. Then walked from the club I was at to the club everyone else bounced to well I was lip locking with my new interest. I danced a little bit more before I realized that Robbiew was walking out the club with another guy I didn't approve of this choice but he is in control of his on life. Then I saw Matt making out with his dude I flip around and caught a glance of ben all over some guy. All the CBL boys ot a little lucky that night. So Friday came Zac still here WOW lol. Me, him, and Matt went out to eat while Ben was in chat and Robbie at his other job. We had fun being silly and crazy. came home and started my chat. Well I have been talking to this new guy since club night Thursday. He is really sweet to me and cute is a understatement. Robbie calls him a whore, but I will make my own opinion of him. Saturday was going to be lame so I slept up til my chat cause I had plans to go with the guy after my chat which I did and it was absolutely amazing. we went to his house and sat with two of his friends laughed drinked and made jokes. I have not laughed so hard in a long time. Then his roomie comes in with a guy and goes to his room and they do the nasty which we can hear. It sounded like they were fixing to come through the wall it was so funny. After sobering up for a hr and making out yes thats right we didn't do nothing but make out. We got in the car and held hands all the way home. I kissed him for like 10 mins goodnight lol. Then came in ate and smoked then hoped in bed where I pasted out. Well little to my surprise I happened to get on the cbl page and see that Matt topped Ben I was a little shocked, but seems I am the only one that hasn't had Ben and it will stay that way cause I am totally turn off by Ben now. Well Zac and Matt went to a concert that I really wanted to go to but had to chat. In the end I am glad I didn't go cause I spent it with something much much better. Well Sunday is here cleaning and diaries are being done. It's a start of a new week so I will you Next Sunday. LOVE YA GUYS <3

Sex, Dramas, and Fun.

Okay so this week has been really long and drama filled to say the least. The week started out good with all of us getting along great, us meaning Me, Robbie, and Matt. We hung out with each other and was getting ready for the arrival of new CBL Boy Ben. Well Wednesday came and we did alittle extra cleaning for Ben to come home to a nice clean place. I was really excited as you all know that been was coming cause we had been talking about it in chats, podcast, and gossip. Well along with the arrival of Ben, Rich and ex-cbl-M A T T came down as well to spice up our cbl life. We got liquor for the night and everyone started drinking. The got very interesting from that point on with everyone getting drunk and being gay and bitchy us guys started getting heated with one another. Like Ex Matt and new Matt having rude comments to one another as well as Ben and ex Matt. Well as the night went on Me and Robbie got into a text fight cause he was flirting with Ben and attached to him like glue. I was not happy seeing how everyone here knew I had been waiting on him to get here and being drunk didn't help it much. Well on another note ex-Matt likes me and I kinda like him except for his bitchyness and drinking he really is a sweet guy. He was told by my ex roommate Draw that I really like him so he came down thinking that he would have me to himself. Well he was kinda mad or jealous of the fact that I liked Ben and wasn't flirting with him as much. Later that night when everyone went to bed I stayed up for a few talking to ex Matt and he asked could he sleep in my bed because Rich snores to loud, I said yea and as you can imagine we need up having sex. This time I was safe and had fun and didn't feel bad about it. Next day we all was recovering from drinking hanging out and doing our new group photo shoot. We as in Me, Matt, and Ben signed or contracts as well. Later that night we all got ready to go out on our first club night as a cbl group. We had a blast dancing and laughing all that is except ex Matt he didn't feel so good. Its a fun night and i was loving it. we left the club and headed to the traditional Waffle House after club thing. We got tables and laughed with our waitress. A little time went by and we noticed Robbie had been gone for a little to long as I went out to check on him followed by Ben. Robbie was really upset and crying we tried to comfort him as best we could I hated seeing that it was really upsetting. Den mm rich is the one that came to the rescue. We ate our yummy food and headed home to get rest. Robbie end up asking me and Ben to cuddle with him until he fell asleep so we did. They ended up falling asleep and me i went to my own bed. Next day Matt and Rich left and the real DRAMA began. After having a talk with Robbie during my podcast about how it made me feel that he was flirting with Ben knowing how I felt he apparently was making out during my chat time which made everyone in chat turn there attention to them. I was so upset with Robbie that entire night. Later I comforted him about it and was like your doing this in front of me and know I am upset after we just had a chat about it. Well that chat ended up going sour and some of the members wasn't helping it by saying i was upset that Ben liked Robbie more. Well of course I was jealous but thats not what I was upset about I was more upset that I thought Robbie was my friend and we talked about it he wouldn't do it again and he did. It was more of a friend betrayal thats what made me so upset. I was getting so upset that I almost wanted to leave CBL. I had one last conversation with Robbie and we put this behind us and went to bed. Well I ended up in bed with Matt doing things again. Robbie and Ben ended up doing it in the chat room the next day and of course you could imagine I was a little jealous but, not mad or upset cause its just sex thats it. We needed up all being in my first hour of chat dancing and having a great time like nothing had ever happened. after my chat of dancing and old school music with the members I got ready to go out for a night of fun with the guys. We went to G-Bar and started dancing and ended up all going out on our on where i found a gorgeous boy that had been staring at me all night but, living up to my nickname the Venus Fly Trap of Sex I waited til he came up to me to snap my trap LMAO!!!! Well we made out and danced and then I had to leave and didn't get to take him with me which sucked. Well Ben had a bad night cause he feels he isn't hot or something cause all that hits on him are ugly old men and thats it. we comforted him and left him to get rest I felt so bad for Ben i hate when people are upset it was me sad. But thats was my week and trust I hope it doesn't get to much more dramatic than that after this cause thats to much.

A Interesting WeeK!!!

Ok so alot has happened this past week and I am not sure how it will change CBL hopefully for the good. Well this week started off good with me I was excited that everyone was coming down on Thursday. They came early though and scared me while i was asleep. I woke up to a big black shadow standing over me which was so not funny, but to everyone else my face was priceless. We hung out for a bit and then went swimming early Thursday morning. I got up to go get a hair cut which looks great now. I shopped for a feww things With Jinx and Zac at Wal-Mart. Got new bedding candles for my room and bathroom so I can relax and think better. I love smells.
I loved having Jinx here and the New App Matt is cool. I am sharing a room with Matt thats c to be in the room by myself. I was told I could have Crickets old room, but I want the one with the big tub lol. So Mattie was let go and Robbie was named new Manager. I think Robbie will do great, but I liked Mattie here and it kinda feels weird without him here. I hate that I haven't even heard from him since Wednesday of last week. Wonder if Matt will ever come over anymore I wish he would come hangout with me a little. Anyways my chats have been going great been getting along with all the members well except there is always a few that like to start something its like that everywhere you go I guess. I am still excited about Ben arriving the 11th its going to finally be a full house. More things to do here with more people in the house and not just like 2 because of Robbie's other job.
I have had a pretty good week since it started with the new app being here and me not being alone all day. Playing games and talking having fun its been great.I have gotten to know Matt and he is awesome he is fun to be around and knows how to have a good time. I hope Matt gets to stay here and becomes a new CBL Boy that would be awesome if that happened.
We had a fun day Thursday while everyone was here. We played games and did pod cast. Jinz made breakfest even though it was lunch time. Later me got liquor and had a few drinks before they had to leave. Me, Matt, and Jay hung out the most I love Jay he is really cool and nice I hope he comes down more often.Well after Zac and the others left it got quiet fast lol. I wish they would come down more often. But I have felt kinda down lately for some reason I don't know exactly what its is maybe i miss my ex that I left in NYC . I feel lonely even though i am surrounded by friends sometimes. Its just hard coming from the life I have had.
So on to the weekend of this week it was pretty boring for the most part. I had fun with Robbie and Matt had a few drinks Saturday and hung out. Sunday was a bit more interesting then past Sundays. We had a drink or too played games and decided to go to bed. Later Me and Matt ended up in bed together and did well you. It was nice, but I am feeling horrible about the whole thing its eating me up inside of what we did. I broke rules and I am usually the one who follow a rules really well. Zac wasn't to upset about which is good cause I thought he would be. It hasn't been to awkward afterward which is another plus I would hate it to ruin any of our relationships here.Its going to be a weird and different week this week I might not be my fun happy go lucky self we will see.

My Busy Week

Ok lets see my first blog was pretty laid back cause of only being here for a short time. Now that i have been here more I can write more about my life in CBL. So lets start with what I have been doing this week. I spent the week actually getting settled in as the new cbl boy which is alot of fun love it here. I started my seasons of Buffy with Robbie and Desperate Housewives with Mattie. I got Mattie Hooked on it. LOL
I have been going swimming more and more which is nice, but I don't like swimming alone so I don't stay in it long. I am waiting for Ben the other new CBL boy coming Aug. 11th so I wont be alone in the House all day when cricket leaves Robbie's at work and Mattie is not here. I been a little down lately since I found out my Grandmother was in the hospital but she is fine from what i have heard. This week as been tiring has hell.
Wednesday I was off of chat and the Tampa house went to Orlando for some fun. We got ready here and when we got there we went to Pulse for a fun night of dancing and drinking. While we were there I got into a dance off twice I won both times cause I am just that good haha. I was so tired by the time we left. I had lots of fun there. I actually saw someone that i was friends with in NYC that has moved here as well which totally shocked me.
We went home after the club got showers and ate food. I didn't know I would be staying up all nigh with no sleep just to go play Paintball in the 100 degree heat. I got to meet 3 new friends that I really had fun with. Paintball was AMAZING it was so much fun to do and i wouldn't mid doing it again. I passed out after I got back to Tampa. LOL I have cooked the last 2 nights I love cooking its fun for me. But hmm that about sums up my week for the most part see u guys next week.